Art wise... I feel horrible.... it's a little different than the usual though :/

I mean, last week end, I began developing this new motivation to create art. I really wanted to create things. Pearl arts and crafts was having a 75% store closing sale, so I saved over 200 bucks in art supplies. I felt inspired and happy. For once... I then began one work of art. It was going alright. It was a difficult piece to work out, I was struggling to create what I had envisioned in my mind, but overall I was so happy that I was creating something! Then, I had an emotional bout, that I will not go into reasons why here, but I winded up tearing the piece up into many different parts... I regret it now... the drawing is gone...

Next, I created another piece of work. It was going so WELL. Just SO stinkin' well.... After about 4 hours of working on it, I walk out of the room for 10 minutes, and walk back in to see my 2 year old niece scribbling ALL over it with colored pencils... -All- over it. Ruined.... of course, I can always trace it and start over but... omg... I just feel so defeated... like, I have been waiting all this time for some motivation to start something for once, and the moment I do everything in life tries to find a way to rip that away from me... it's like life doesn't want me to be an artist... or like some invisible force is trying so hard to make me quit....

I just feel so defeated... so beat down... I am finding it really difficult to rise up from this past week ends failures... I guess I will get over this... but in the meantime, I feel utterly hopeless...